Monday, March 05, 2007

Wake me up when February ends

I am glad February 2007 is gone, and I'm glad it's not coming back.
In February we lost Lia and Mary, and Oscar went in to ICU. Bobby and I went to see him last night, and he did look better. He said that they have finally gotten his pain to a manageable state, with a Morphine drip and regular injections of Dilaudid (?) as needed. It was good to see him with some color and able to chat for an hour or so without being in pain.
As for the future, we are all a little unsure. The tumor may continue growing now that they have taken him off of his chemo. Not sure how any of this is going to go. I'm scared, quite honestly, but trying to be real about my feelings and am hoping that as time goes on I will be able to deal with what is happening. For now, I'm going on instinct and what I know is the right thing to do.


Carver said...


Going on instinct, that says it all and your site is full of good instincts which I have no doubt are representative of the rest of your life. I wish it were easier for those you care about and for you. The cancer sucks slogan barely skims the surface sometimes.

Your hindsight entry was so eloquent and very interesting to read. Interesting isn't the right word but I don't have the right word to use.

Take care of yourself and keep following your instincts, Carver

faye said...

I've missed your words here! It is nice to read you again. Don't abide by the "if you don't have something nice to say" rule, b/c you will be missed- and also b/c your mean is nice.


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