Sunday, April 18, 2010

Beautiful Today

Just wanted to drop a quick note to thank all internet surfers out there that have recently found my blog and commented or emailed me. It's great to meet you all! Cancer sucks but if we stick together there's so much we can accomplish and change. Don't believe the statistics or the doctors- but rather, find the truth inside yourself. Give yourself time to make decisions based on what you want, not what your doctors want. Do research and decide on your own what treatments you want. And if you need someone on your side, just tell them Miss M has your back! I'll support your decisions, even if no one else does. So there! Take that, haters! We don't need no stinkin' approval anyway!
Suck on it, Trebek!


Sunday, April 11, 2010

What is my worst fear?

I was recently asked this question by one of my fifth graders. A question like that takes you places.

For a long time, the answer was always "disappointing the people that I love." But, after a lifetime of disappointing people that I love, I have realized there is, at some points, no way to avoid it if you're going to be true to yourself. And then later in life I realized that sometimes the people I disappointed were people that I loved but that didn't really love me back. So there went that one.

The truth is, to be completely honest with you, my biggest fear is the, "I never thought you would do this" moment that occurs so many times in our lives. It can be found in the following forms:
  • I never thought you'd treat me this way
  • I never thought you would intentionally hurt me
  • I never thought you'd cheat on me
  • I never thought a friend would do such a thing
  • I never thought we'd drift apart \I never thought you'd stop talking to me just because blah blah blah
  • insert other here
It's a tough fear to overcome. I fight between being naturally friendly and being very protective of myself. I don't trust easily, but genuinely love working with people. So it's sort of a paradox, if I want to be dramatic about it. Recently I was reminded of my intuition and how I generally know pretty quickly whether I should let someone in. I ignored my instincts and got burned again.

Getting burned is just part of life. But it's always a battle, being compassionate and loving towards others, while still being compassionate and loving towards myself. This is the big one I'm working on right now.

Thank you, higher power, for everything you send my way.


Sunday, April 04, 2010

How to Get Exactly What You Want

This is fresh off the brain waves.

How to get exactly what you want: decide that what you have is exactly what you want.*


*includes chronic pain


I'm Too Young For This!