Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Double Your Pleasure

Okay, so it's been a day or two and I'm starting to get back in my right mind. Who knew? I'm crazy. Did you know? I guess the point is that when I'm normal, I'm crazy, but not crazy like this. This is like Courtney f**king Love crazy. But I'm better. No really.

Did you also know that cancer patients are three times more likely than non-cancer patients to become depressed? You did? You did not. You're frontin. Well, anyway, it's true. And that's been the cause of my recent overemotional outbursts, and I'm seeing the doctor again tomorrow for a solution. I guess I've been slipping for a while and just didn't realize it, especially when I was so happy to be out of the hospital. But hey, it happens. It's bananas, B-A-N-A-N-A-S! I feel better just knowing why I've been so down. The Interferon has a tendency to cause depression, plus being sick in general for long periods of time make it hard to fight it. When I read through the depression screening, I was shocked that it didn't just have my name posted at the top in big red letters- that's how close the symptoms were to how I've been acting lately. Seriously. Courtney Love crazy. Girl Interrupted crazy. Angelina Jolie crazy.
I'll be really honest and tell y'all that I almost didn't post these blogs. And then I did. They are downers and kinda scary and not fun at all, but they are real and if someone out there is reading this and going through this, too, I want them to know what it's really like, and that it's still going to be okay even though sometimes it doesn't seem like it. So, that's it for now. I've got to get back to filling that vial of blood to put around my neck and adopting Asian babies with mohawks.


michael said...

Ok. I just read your entire blog from start to finish. I just want to tell you that you are the strongest, most calm, level-headed, sarcastic, extraordinarily bright person I have ever met. Obviously taking 'met' loosely. Blogs give you a peek into ppls lives, and I feel that I have been touched and enlightened by seeing yours. Keep the posts up, keep your head up, and GOOD LUCK with all the things you ever want do. My email is if you ever need a pick me up... Good Luck and keep smilin!

Mimi said...

Hey Lori,
I just stopped by to see how you were doing... I know it sucks when you don't know why you feel down and you don't know how to get yourself back up. In a small way I think most people go through it every now and then and I just hope we can all recognize it and leave it behind when we do. We all love you woman, keep smiling because you have a cute smile. Btw I love the dog balls cartoon, why would dogs need a self help group for ball licking???? I'm so jealous.

Anonymous said...

Well Michael and mimi - have said it all and I am glad that you posted the blogs too, its important to be real... We know this. I love the real Lori



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